well i havent wrote in this thing in forever
so all i have to say is.....



HELLO

bunch songs [read when you want]

"Should've Said No"
It's strange to think the songs we used to sing,
The smiles, the flowers, everything,
Is gone.
Yesterday I found out about you,
Even now just looking at you,
Feels wrong.
You say, that you'd take it all back,
Given one chance, it was a moment of weakness,
And you said yes

You should've said no,
You should've gone home,
You should've thought twice before you let it all go.
You should've known the word, 'bout what you did with her'd,
Get back to me.
And I should've been there,
In the back of your mind,
I shouldn't be asking myself why,
You shouldn't be beggin' for forgiveness at my feet.
You should've said no,
Baby and you might still have me.

You can see that I've been cryin',
Baby you know all the right things,
To say.
But do you, honestly, Expect me, to believe,
We could ever be the same.
You say, that the past is the past,
You need one chance, it was a moment of weakness,
And you said yes

I can't resist,
Before you go tell me this,
Was it worth it,
Was she worth this???





"Cold As You"
You have a way of coming easily to me.
And when you take, you take the very best of me.
So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin'
And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted.

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through,
I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray.
And I stood there lovin' you and WISHED them all away.
And you come away with a great little story of a mess
of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
So just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.
You never did give a damn thing, honey.
But I cried, cried for you.






"Picture to Burn"
State the obvious,
I didn’t get my perfect fantasy
I realized you love yourself
More that you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends
That I’m obsessive and crazy,
That’s fineI’ll tell mine
You’re gay,
And by the way,

I hate that stupid old pickup truck,
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned,
You’re just another picture to burn.

There’s no time for tears
I’m just sitting here planning my revenge
There’s nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends
And if you come around saying’ sorry to me
My daddy’s going to show you how sorry you’ll be

‘Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck,
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned,
You’re just another picture to burn.

And if you’re missing me
You better keep it to yourself
‘Cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health






"Tied Together With a Smile"
Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
is the face in the mirror looking back at you
you walk around here thinking your not pretty

hold on, you're losing it the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one and
your tied together with a smile but your coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
cause you've given it away like it's extra change
hoping it will end up in his pocket
but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
oh, cause it's not his price to pay
not his price to pay...

you're tied together with a smile but you're coming undone...

so..

so i seriously dont know where to start
honestly i am upset on how selfish people are being lately
i have been thinking a lot..like i mean a lot
okay so we have always been told that we have a problem with cliques
and i have never thought we did until now
calling us the fab five isnt bad except for its singling people out
imagine coming to a new church and not fitting in and people are not saying it right in the open but are really saying that theyd rather not have them in
yeah we are going to grow apart but we dont have to
i will always be there for you guys but its time for us to inviting more people to church and actually letting them in
we need more people in the youth group and we need to actually let them in
idk..i guess its just a hard time for me right now but it has really opened my eyes
iloveyouall
it just hurts me to see people hurt
and people are feeling this way
we need to change

so i dont know where to begin honestly
Every since yesterday i guess i have been over analyzing life
It felt so weird to be there yesterday
like i was supposed to be there
i don't know how i am feeling and why i am feeling this way
i don't even know this kid but it feels like i lost someone close
when i was there i felt like i really felt his families pain
i really cant stop thinking about this with random crying sprees
i am weird sorry
just had to vent

today was unbarable
i just want everyone i know to know that i love them so much

i love camp!

i miss it bunch much and i wish we were still there :[

cool

ok so i pretty much love my family, even though they are crazy but there is no one like them
just to give you a little taste of my weekend..after my cousin's graduation she threw all of her books into a bonfire..lol anyways i am in a quote mood..get over it..


i have always had this tendency to assume that change, when it happens, can only be for the worse you know? and lately, i kinda feel like that's not true. like, whatever's waiting for me out there may not be that bad.


just ask yourself one simple question:
is he taking care of your heart?


in the end, we only regret
the chances we didn't take,
the relationships we were afraid to have,
and the decisions we took too long to make.


I felt comfortable around you. When I was
with you, I didn't have to be perfect. I didn't
even have to try for perfect. You already
knew my secrets, and things I kept hidden
from everyone else. So I was able to finally
just be myself. Which probably shouldn't
have been such a big deal; but it was.
++umm yeah exactly how i felt..too bad he doesnt feel the same anymore :[++


I've never regretted you.
Because I loved every second of it.


Just last year we were all anticipating to get out of this
school, but now im standing here on my graduation day
and I find myself hoping for just one more day.


The saddest people I've ever met in life are the
ones who don't care deeply about anything at all.
Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand. And
without them, happiness is only temporary because
there's nothing to make it last. I love to hear people
talk about what their most passionate about, because
that's when you see the person at their best.


Sometimes when you look back on a situation,
you realize it wasn't all you thought it was.
Someone walked into your life,
you fell in love, or did you?
Maybe it was only a childish infatuation.
Or maybe it was a brief moment of insanity.

Because he has been a major part of your life, of course
you'll miss him; it's perfectly normal. It's like getting a
tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it out you're
relieved. But how many times does your tongue run
itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably
a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you
does not mean you don't notice it. It leaves a gap, &
sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It's going
to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept
the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling
the tooth was the right decision, but it's going to hurt.
[wow…good analogy there]


I felt something catch in my throat, a sudden surge of
sadness that caught me unaware. It almost managed to
take my breath away. That was the thing; you never
get used to it. You never get used to the idea of
someone being gone. Just when you think it's okay,
and you think you've accepted it, someone points it
out to you, and it hits you all over again,
and it's just as shocking as the first time.

++on monday we went to visit my aunts graves..which i thought i could just go there and put the flowers down and realize that it was all okay now and they were in heaven..but its never okay to me..its been five years since my first aunt died and i still couldnt stop balling..it sucked and on the way home from the cemetary my grandma broke down and just couldnt stop saying "its just not the same" and it hurt so bad because no one..no one..is supposed to bury their kids..idk it just doesnt feel the same going up there..i just feel like i need to be up there because life isnt always promised tomorrow and i cant stand losing anymore of my family and feeling like i didnt get to spend as much time as i should have..ughh sorry just really upset and this quote really touched that subject++