i love camp!

i miss it bunch much and i wish we were still there :[

cool

ok so i pretty much love my family, even though they are crazy but there is no one like them
just to give you a little taste of my weekend..after my cousin's graduation she threw all of her books into a bonfire..lol anyways i am in a quote mood..get over it..


i have always had this tendency to assume that change, when it happens, can only be for the worse you know? and lately, i kinda feel like that's not true. like, whatever's waiting for me out there may not be that bad.


just ask yourself one simple question:
is he taking care of your heart?


in the end, we only regret
the chances we didn't take,
the relationships we were afraid to have,
and the decisions we took too long to make.


I felt comfortable around you. When I was
with you, I didn't have to be perfect. I didn't
even have to try for perfect. You already
knew my secrets, and things I kept hidden
from everyone else. So I was able to finally
just be myself. Which probably shouldn't
have been such a big deal; but it was.
++umm yeah exactly how i felt..too bad he doesnt feel the same anymore :[++


I've never regretted you.
Because I loved every second of it.


Just last year we were all anticipating to get out of this
school, but now im standing here on my graduation day
and I find myself hoping for just one more day.


The saddest people I've ever met in life are the
ones who don't care deeply about anything at all.
Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand. And
without them, happiness is only temporary because
there's nothing to make it last. I love to hear people
talk about what their most passionate about, because
that's when you see the person at their best.


Sometimes when you look back on a situation,
you realize it wasn't all you thought it was.
Someone walked into your life,
you fell in love, or did you?
Maybe it was only a childish infatuation.
Or maybe it was a brief moment of insanity.

Because he has been a major part of your life, of course
you'll miss him; it's perfectly normal. It's like getting a
tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it out you're
relieved. But how many times does your tongue run
itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably
a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you
does not mean you don't notice it. It leaves a gap, &
sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It's going
to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept
the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling
the tooth was the right decision, but it's going to hurt.
[wow…good analogy there]


I felt something catch in my throat, a sudden surge of
sadness that caught me unaware. It almost managed to
take my breath away. That was the thing; you never
get used to it. You never get used to the idea of
someone being gone. Just when you think it's okay,
and you think you've accepted it, someone points it
out to you, and it hits you all over again,
and it's just as shocking as the first time.

++on monday we went to visit my aunts graves..which i thought i could just go there and put the flowers down and realize that it was all okay now and they were in heaven..but its never okay to me..its been five years since my first aunt died and i still couldnt stop balling..it sucked and on the way home from the cemetary my grandma broke down and just couldnt stop saying "its just not the same" and it hurt so bad because no one..no one..is supposed to bury their kids..idk it just doesnt feel the same going up there..i just feel like i need to be up there because life isnt always promised tomorrow and i cant stand losing anymore of my family and feeling like i didnt get to spend as much time as i should have..ughh sorry just really upset and this quote really touched that subject++